Torn Between Two-38 I sat there in the hospital with Kyle, not

Torn Between Two-38

I sat there in the hospital with Kyle, not bothering to go to school today. Two weeks have flew by fast, and a lot has changed with Kyle. He lost his memory, he can't really walk properly, he forgets a lot...it's just devastating to see him like this. I wish I haven't gone to that party. None of this would have ever happened. Me and Kyle could just be together and we can both be happy. Life fuckingg sucks. It was around noon and Kyle was asleep. He sometimes mumbles my name while he dreams. It's quite adorable. I held his hand, and just watched him sleep peacefully. I heard a soft knock and it surprised me a little. I told whoever was at the door to come in.
"Hey Kathy...you okay?" It was Derek. No one ever used that named except for mom.
"Why did you call me that?" I asked. 
"You're miserable, Kath. I'm trying to cheer you up. Dad told me that your Mom use to call you that. If your mom was here, she would tell you that this is life. You need to keep your head up high." Derek said, looking straight into my eyes.
"I guess so..." I said. Mom would tell me that. She would tell me everything is fine.Damn, do I miss her. 
"Did you eat yet?" Derek asked. I really haven't eaten ever since Kyle was at the hospital. I stared at my stomach.
"No." I said, Derek just looked at me. 
"Kath, you're going have to eat. Kyle's parents are outside, they'll watch over him while you eat." Derek whispered. I just stared at him. You can tell Derek really does care for me.
"Alright, go get his parents, I'll go eat." I said softly, looking at Kyle. He left the room, and his parents came in shortly. I left with Derek to go to the cafeteria. 
"I hate my life." I said while we were waiting in line to get something to eat. 
"Don't say that Kath. You've faced death before. It's life." He said while grabbing whatever the hell there is on the table. I followed him when we reached our table.
" I know, it's just hard to lose someone you love...this will be the second time that it happened. Derek...It's really hard for me." I said playing with my food.
"Just eat your food Kath. Just focus on that for now." I did as he said. It took me a while to finish my food. When we finished eating I headed outside for some air and I saw Kristen and Drake. They came rushing to me when they saw me. I tried to smile at them. 
"Kath! How are yah?" Kristen said smiling. Drake was smiling too. 
"Okay...I guess." I lied. 
"Liar." Drake said. He knew me so well. 
"Lets go inside." I said, I just want to see Kyle. Both of them agreed and we went to Kyle's room. When we got there no one was in the room. I started to panic. Drake and Kris were behind me and they saw the look on my face.
" Kath calm down." Drake said, trying to let me sit. I couldn't respond to him.
"We'll go find a nurse okay?" Kristen said. I followed her. When we asked one of the nurses they said that something happened to Kyle and they didn't know what. All she knew was that the doctors are on it. When I heard that Derek came into my view and he saw my face and he gave me a big hug. We all know what is going to happen.


-Hay readers! I am sososososososo sorry I haven't wrote in a LONNNNNNNNG time. It's just school and crap. Since school is coming to an end I will write more much much much more! I also have a surprise for you guys too! I won't say what yet, but you guys will be happy! I love my readers so much! xoxo.