This time 1 month
ago,
I
would have just been sitting on my bed, staring at the
wall, wishing that I could see
her again. I would have refused to be happy, and
every time I was in a good mood I
would suddenly think "James, how can you be
happy? Your best friend, the person
who you loved the most, the one person who really
understood you... She's
gone.
You'll never see her beautiful smile or hear her laugh
again. She's gone."
& Now? Now I'm going to stop being a selfish
idiot. She would have wanted me to be
happy, she always hated me being sad. Truth is,
when I started school, I was blind.
I was always laughed at for being blind, and Bethany was
the only one who didn't make
fun of me at some stage. Since then, I recovered from
my blindness (don't ask how.)
and Bethany was still my best friend. I made more
friends, but Bethany was always
the closest. I really loved her. Like I said,
she always hated me being sad, and since
she died in front of me on that day - February 28th, 2011 -
I've been more than sad.
I've been suicidal. But there's no more of
that now. I'm not going to die for her,
I'm
going to live for her. It's what she
wants. I'm going to smile as often as I can, and
I'm
going to celebrate the fact that she really lived, even if it was
only for 13
years.
I'm on the road to
recovery.
I love you,
Bethany.
Rest in
Peace.
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colleenlovesmelissa - Cancer.
TaliaWasHere - Ugh, I said don't ask... But you can recover from blindness if you end up blind because of a trauma.
Everyone else - Thanks(:
I wasn't able to go to school all the time, but when I did, I wrote and read things with the Braille alphabet. Look it up if you don't know what it is.