I have no idea what to do I just keep finding myself wanting

I have no idea what to do
I just keep finding myself wanting you
And it hurts so bad because I know
That even if I let this show
It wouldn't matter, you want her, not me
It's not that I blame you, she's smart and pretty
Everything I wish I could be
To you..
But you'd never think of me that way
But all I could ever want is just to hear to say
What I've been dying to say to you all along.