You're sooo pretty and have a LOT going for you. Keep telling yourself you don't need it :) You can do it. I knoww it. Talk to me if you need anything! :)
What you need to do is tell someone. If you dont tell you cant get help. Once you have told someone then they can help you get help! The good thing is that you know and realize what you are though thats the first step! The second step is getting help so please do it!