(***** i don't expect anyone to read this, but if you do,

(***** i don't expect anyone to read this, but if you do, this is to the boy who I've been on && off with for three years now. It may not all make sense, but no one understands, so i need to VENT!)
 

first off, i miss you. More than words can describe...
This isn't going to be easy, I know, but I've decided to let you go, to let us go.
Not because I want to, but because I deserve to.
This world has thrown us every single reason why we shouldn't be together,
and it has finally won.
I know i promised i'd never give up on you,
but I have to break it.
Im out of hope, i'm out of strength, and I'm out of reasons why I should keep fighting for someone,
who just doesn't care anymore.
You love her.
And when you finally told me you loved her more, is when I realized, It's time.
Time for me to move on.
But it's going to be hell.
I'm going to have good days, where I won't think about you at all.
And I'm going to have bad days, where every thing I do reminds me of you.
But I know I'll be okay... When I see you, i'll turn my head and I'll not talk to you.
I don't hate you, please don't think I do. I need to do this.
Not only for me, but for you.
Go be happy with the perfect girl.
Because It never was me.
Even though I tried, you chose her.
I'm letting you be happy, so please let it be my turn.
I love you. So So So So much.
No words could ever describe it.
And a part of me belongs to you.
I'll probably keep writing you letters, and telling myself that it's like I still have some part of you...
but... I know your gone.
And I know we're done...
Thank you for every kiss, smile, text, laugh, argument, tear,
and most of all, every 'I love you.'

You gave me something to believe in, and now it's time to believe in myself.

Love, your mistake.