What if you were a mistake what if when god made you it was an

What if you were a mistake
what if when god made you it was an accident
i know they say god doesnt make mistakes but what if he made just one,... you
you ahve no idea how bad this hurts to feel like this
i wish not even on my worst enemy this feeling
this feeling i had running through my head
with every minute of every day with people retecueling you, parents screaming, grades falling, never being good enough, it just gets worse
the feeling just kept growing
it was like cancer; it kept growing and coming back and no one knows how to stop it
i dont even know how to stop it
and it scares the hell out of me because i dont know what im going to do if this feeling doesnt go away
do i take it, do i cut, do i die
i ahve so many options
and if this feeling keeps getting worse
im going to have to pick the last one
its funny because when you have to hide, you learn how to
poeple would never guess i feel like this
and i never want them to know
but one day when i take just a little to far
the cut goes a little to deep
the flame doesnt go out
hte pills dont stop comin
then people will know
and then what will they think...