Vent Quote #4626236
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It was your personal choice, and I'm willing to respect that.

It was your personal choice,

and I'm willing to respect that. If you didn't want me around, all you needed to do was say something... I knew, your friends knew, we all knew. It was "awkward and confusing," as I quote you, about the fact that I just kept trying and trying to break into your tight little circle of friends. You've known them forever, and you don't want anyone new joining you... or at least not me. I mean, I understand it's not against me personally, you don't hate me... but you're very selective about letting new people join your group, and I wasn't selected. I kept telling you, "If you don't want me here, just say something and I'll leave." But for whatever reason, it was too hard for you to say anything. Maybe it's because you were trying to be nice. And I completely understand that. I'm a nice person, myself - I don't like to say anything mean about anyone, and I don't believe there's ever a reason to hate another person. But at the same time, I like it when people are up front about what they want. Not rude about it, but they find a nice way of saying what needs to be said... as opposed to not saying anything at all. The rumors have gone around the school many times, or at least to the people who know both of us, that I'm basically some crazy girl who likes you and follows you and your friends around like some pathetic person who has better things to do, but follows you anyway because she has hope that maybe, just maybe, you'll want her too. It wasn't said exactly like that, but that's the way I look at it. However, you've crushed that hope. Of course, I'm not THAT pathetic as to not have bigger hopes. It's not like I based my entire existence on you. I'm not an idiot. But I say and do stupid things sometimes. We all do. Meanwhile, you don't like me as more than a friend. You don't even like me as a friend. It's pretty ironic how long I kept trying to get to you, when I knew you didn't care, and that you didn't want me around you. Why should I waste my time with someone who doesn't care, when I have tons of people that DO care? I have my friends, and you have yours. Speaking of your friends... I have nothing against them, or against you. But... sometimes I wonder, if they're influencing you? As in... if they weren't around, would you like me back? Are you scared of what your friends think? Do you secretly like me, but since you know they wouldn't approve... you hide it? And you can't stand having me around because it just hurts you too much? I strongly doubt any of that is true. But it's still a thought. Not one I'm betting on, but it's still an idea. I tried my hardest not to be clingy. It's hard though, because you're always with your friends. Always. I've told you many times that I don't care if it hurts my feelings, I want to know the truth. But still, you evade almost everything I try to ask. I still don't take it personally. You're just not open to making new friends right now. You've had the same group for years, and you want to keep it that way. I understand that. I respect that. It's just... sometimes I wish things were different, you know? There's lots of things that could be going through your head. I could spend forever making up theories, but it's unlikely that I'll ever know the entire truth. Either way, I believe that everything happens for a reason, and I'm holding on to that belief. If you ever change your mind about things, just ask me, and I'll be willing to be your friend... or not. Who knows where I'll be by that point? If it ever gets to that point, that is. Chances are, that if it DOES ever get to that point, I'll be long gone. I'll have moved on to other things. The world may be small, but there's still a lot of it that I haven't yet seen; so much more for me to discover. Why limit it to the tiny little corner that you and your friends inhabit? But just letting you know, it's your loss if you don't want me to be there with you, and it's your choice, and if you don't want me around, so be it.

Remake of old quote - #2439898 - with a few edits.
It's actually quite... amazing? how accurate it still remains to the situation it was originally written about.
It's as if little has changed or truly improved since then. :/