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If you really knew me; You'd know that I don't like who

If you really knew me;
You'd know that I don't like who I am. You would know I'm a self-harmer who is forever searching for new ways to hurt themselves. You'd know that suicide never really leaves my head though sometimes I realise I don't want to die just yet. If you really knew me, you'd know, instead of crying I shake and can't breathe like I should be able to, though when that happens, I tell people I'm crying because it sounds weird otherwise. If you really knew me you'd know I was bullied for my whole life up until aged 11. If you really knew me you'd know my memories haunt me so much. If you really knew me you'd know I build walls to keep people out. If you really knew me you'd know I'm constantly drugged up on med's that make me feel all but nothing. If you really knew me you'd know that I don't call myself fat or ugly for attention, I really really mean it. if you really knew me, you'd know despite the fact I suck at advice, I'll always always always be someone to listen. If you really knew me, you'd know I scare myself and I don't trust myself because I am able to do some very horrible things. But then again, I guess I really don't know who I am myself.