~loss~ there are so many emotions in me that i feel as if i may
there are so many emotions in me that i feel as if i may explode.
all of the tears are welled up inside of my chest begging
for an escape but i refuse to let them leave because i know
the moment i start to cry, i may never be able to stop.at this
point i dont know what to do, i couldnt take it if i lost him and i
fear i might. the pain is overwhelming and i dont know what to do
or how to deal with it but it hurts. the tears are dripping onto my
cracked broken heart like acid and ripping holes right through it.
i am a mess and im forced searching for a solution to my
happiness again. it left me long ago and ive been too busy
searching for a substitute to realize that its right infront of me,
teasing me,threatening to leave me alone in the darkness again. i
dont think i can stand going back there. things happen. you find
yourself lost in insanity from being alone and start to imagine
stuff. voices. whole conversations. its depressing and i cant bare
the thought of it ever returning to me.