Long Story but... My best guy friend that i have known since

Long Story but...

My best guy friend that i have known since i was 2
suddenly became attractive!
But the thing is.. He is inLOVE with my best friend

At a barmihtzha (idk how to spell that!) one night
i told him how i felt...
i really shouldn't have!!
The last few days of school have been the worst!
i haven't talked to him once and
whenever i look at him he looks away!
i really just want my friend back 
but i dont know what to do to get him back
i dont know how much longer i can live without him!
he was my best friend...
i told him everything!
we talked about any topic and it wouldn't be awkward!
i could lean on his shoulder during a time 
when i wanted to cry..
but now is the time i wanna cry the most
i dont wanna live without him forever
but i can't get him back...
i told him 2 days ago that i would stop having
a crush on him if he would just talk to me..
it didn't work...
i dont know if he hates me or if its all just in my head
but what hurts the most is knowing
he looks at your best friend the way
you wished he looked at you..
i know he wont read this but i just want the world
to know that inside i am crying but on the outside
i have a fake smile :|

Comment! What do i do....? ♥