i'm sorry. i know i'm
selfish.
i really do want to be
able to smile and mean it. i don't mean to be depressed all
the time, i don't want attention in fact i want the
opposite. i want to be a normal teenager. i want to be able to
have someone to love. i want to be able to look in a mirror
without feeling disgusted or crying. i want to be beautiful. i
want to be able to not have the urge to end it all. Do you
think i wan to feel this
pain?