I don't know you personally and might think why does she care, but I really do you seem like such an amazing person and if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here :)
don't, there's so much more that will happen in your life. you're such an amazing person. any guy isn't worth killing yourself over, just because you can't talk to him. it will get better. so many people love you, including all of witty. ♥
please don't. there are so many people that love and care for you. never do anything drastic because of a boy. comment on my profile if you need to talk to someone. <3