PLEASE READ I NEED
HELP;
Track team last year, my friend
borrowed his sweatshirt. He was a year older. I didn't even
know him. I passed by while my friend returned his jacket, he
looked at me with a sort of faint smile. I didn't think
anything of it...so I just smiled back and kept walking. The next
day his friend accidently added me into a chat room with him on
skype. He was talking about how every girl rejected him and that
every time he said hi to a girl, they'd walk away. So i said,
"Hi James", he replied with a "Hi (:" I
didn't think anything of it. The next day at track practice, he
said hi to me. I said hi back, I didn't think anything of it.
Before i knew it, we were best friends. I told him everything, he
told me everything. I didn't have a date to the school dance,
so I asked him if he was going. He said no. I told him it was too
bad, because I didn't have anyone to go with. He said he would
go with me. I didn't really think anything of it. At the dance,
we talked, he said I looked beautiful. I didn't think anything
of it. Then, we slow danced. It was my first slow dance ever. I
still didn't think anything of it. But, towards the end of the
dance he told me he had a question. I stood there waiting for him
to ask it. He said, "Will...you go out with me?" i stood
there for a minute thinking, 'Did he feel this way all
along?'. He was my best friend, everyone was standing around
us, I felt sort of pressured. I said yes. He hugged me like 50
times, he gave good hugs. After about a week, everyone in my grade
was making fun of me. They told me it wasn't going to last, he
was going to highschool next year. They told me he wouldn't
even remember my name. I got scared... he was my best friend...well
my boyfriend now. How could he not remember me? So I talked to him
that day, I told him maybe we should just be friends. He was really
upset. I felt awful. Summer went by so fast, at the end of it he
texted me. I was so surprised to see his name pop up on my phone.
We talked everyday from then on. Then...once school started, he
stopped talking to me after 2 months. I waited and waited for a
text, a skype call, something. But I never got anything. He dated
some girl, I dated a guy. I didn't think anything of it. A few
months later after I dumped my boyfriend, I found out he broke up
with his. Now, i talk to one of his best friends all the time but I
miss him like crazy. I would do ANYTHING to just talk to him.
I'd do anything to get him back....I shouldn't have let him
go. He's the only one I think about. Yet, he probably
doesn't think about me at all. I miss him. Wtf am I supposed to
do now?