I thought life was getting atleast a little better but it wasnt.

I thought life was getting atleast a little better but it wasnt. its been getting worse. my dad just bought a house and on the outside i seem happy but the divorse is tearing me apart, i wont be able to be with my mom and dad. together. as a family. it will never be the same. and in school my ex-bestfriend hates me.. i miss her.. we had such good times..  i dont know what i did but im sorry if i did something.. to anyone. i feel like im loosing everyone. my life sucks. i dont get good grades. i have horrible nerves. im a loner in school because everyone has their best friends and im like trying to fit in places.. but cant. I thought i wasnt going to cut again.. but i have been.. lately.. I dont get why im still here. no one would honestly miss me. i just.. dont know. but when i need my friends and i say my promblem they kinda get mad.. like.. i need you.