I miss my bestfriends but I changed I don't like the new

I miss my bestfriends
but I changed
I don't like the new me
but how I be the old me?
I miss Madison & Abby
more than anything.
They were my bestfriends 
& I went to them for everything.
But now, they hate me.
& they both think 
that I changed;
no, I grew up.