Just another
broken girl
who's trying to vent
Why am i never good enough for anyone? why do i have to be a
little prettier a little smarter a little skinnier a little
taller a little funnier and the list goes on ?. i just feel like
i'm pushing away the people i love, everyone i love leaves me in
the end, but i don't really blame them, it's not thier fault that
i'm so fuucking complicated. i just want someone to stick till
the very end, someone who understands. but maybe i should
understand myself first.. , i feel lost, am i really that hard to
be around ? am i a bad person ?. 'caus lately i'v been feeling
that way. It's kinda hard for me to keep friends, i ALWAYS push
them away, maybe they get tired of me , of how my mood can change
in a blink of an eye, of my weirdness, but mostly they get tired
of Me. it's kinda funny 'cause i'm tired of Me
too. i don't know why i get so close to people when i know they
will leave, every time i meet someone new and i feel comfortable
around them, i just assume that they will not leave, but in the
back of my mind i know they will. i Always give the best advices,
i'm always there for everyone, but when i'm sad .. who's there ?
NO ONE. I'm so fuucking tired of being the shoulder everyone crys
on, I want to live for me .. at least for once !! i dont know who
i am anymore, i don't know what to do with my life, i don't know
what to care about, i don't know who will be there for me.
i'm just a sad sad
robot.
im here for you, i feel exactly the same way. </3