I feel like this everyday, i would greatly appreciate if you

I feel like this everyday, i would greatly appreciate if you read this:

I Don't Know Why
 

I dont know why
there's a darkness inside of me
screaming at me trying so hard to come out
but it wont, all there is is evil taking over my brain,
Why me? What did I do?
I really dont know why

I dont know why
i cant break free of the sadness,
a hovering dark cloud over my head, always
I hear the raindrops splashing on my head
as i silently sit still staring at the darkness
i hate everything, i starve myself,
i just dont know why

I dont know why
i have to feel a slice across my skin
every single day, as the blood drips down,
i can taste it
I sit as still as a rock, sulking, wondering why this happens, all alone, i can only hear myself crying and i can see the monster inside of me, a rawr, a thousand times a day, the darkness wont come out
I still just dont know why

I dont know why
I waste my time to fight the pain i go through
Should i keep trying? Should I give up?
But my heart just doesnt know what to do
I can smell the nearby death
and the flowers that lay upon them
I stand beneath the shining stars and think:
"I dont know why"

I dont know why
Im still here, my hopeless little soul
I still sit and wonder,
"Should it be time for me to go?"
Now i rest beneath the dirt and flowers
the pain has gone away
but no one ever did know why
it had to be this way