Never good enough for anyone The rain pounds my window and I

Never good enough for anyone 

The rain pounds my window and I peer out, trying to strain my neck and veiw the end of the driveway, because that is my only chance of seeing him.
I can't believe I fell for his lies. or his eyes.
He is amazing but he wants nothing to do with me anymore.
I turn my head, and try to stop him from running through my thoughts.
I cant though.
The kiss runs my mind a billion times a day. His velvet lips gently brushing mine, then he whispered.."You're beautiful, but I have a girlfriend"
Drops of sadness now fall as I remember that memory.
That was last summer.
All summer he led me on, telling me how I was perfect, lovely, and everything he needed and wanted.
Then after three months of summer, he kissed me for the 13th time, and told me about his girlfriend of 2 years.
Her name is Emma.
Out of the corner of my eye, I spy him.
Cargo shorts and a green v-neck to match his eyes.
Brown hair falling perfectly in his face.
My heart lusts for him even though I know it is wrong.
It is going to be a hard summer. He is here and so am I.
I must remember he played me like a game of baseball.
He is an ace baseball player.
Every summer for as long as i can remember we have played together, swam together, laughed together.Everything. together.
My phone goes off and I look down reading my text,
"Hey, Jenna. Emma and I broke up 2 months ago. I apoligize for what happened last summer. I love you, really. I have since I was 6. Come outside and kiss me in the pouring rain babydoll. please. You can sleep in my arms under the stars. You must be tired after running though my thoughts for 11 years. Please Jenna."
He thinks everything is okay now.
Is it? Is it possible?
Hearing a ting pounce from my window, I look.
Lucas is throwing rocks at my window, it is pouring rain.
I go outside.
Even if my heart will break again.





_not making it a story. But i felt like writing a little.