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posted June 11, 2012 at 8:09pm UTC tagged with
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TODAY IS MY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY.
One year ago today, I was an inpatient at treatment for what ended up being the fourth of my five times. Last year for my birthday, I wished I were dead. Last year on my birthday, I made a goal that as soon as I finished inpatient, I would be back to 73 pounds by May 17th, 2012 (if I was even still alive.) Right now, I am 127 pounds and I could not be happier. I can’t even imagine what my life would be if I hadn’t chosen recovery. Would I even be alive right now? I am so thankful to be here alive, breathing, and celebrating my sixteenth birthday when I didn't even plan to make it this far. I spend so much time thinking about how horrible my life really is. But do I really have it that bad? I have a roof over my head and a bed to sleep in. I have a family who loves me and provides for me. I have a best friend who takes care of me, loves and supports me, and would give absolutely anything for me. (Hi Breanne. :) <3 ) I’m safe, I’m healthy, and I’m not dying.
This year, I have another wish. Two actually. I wish that I never again find myself back where I was. And then I wish that YOU always find a reason to live. Whoever you are and whatever you’re going through, fight through it, fight for it, or fight against it. Whichever it is, don’t give up. Because remember:
when things are bad, they don't stay that way.
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I DON'T THINK THE
"WEIGHT LOSS TIPS" ON WITTY ARE RIGHT.
I know most of them are healthy ways to lose weight, but unhealthy people may use them in unhealthy ways. I come to witty for an escape. An escape from everything my life is and has been for the past four years. I don't want to come on witty and see top quotes on ways to lose weight when I've been dealing with anorexia for four years and spending the last two years trying to gain weight in treatment and recovery. If someone wants to lose weight, they can research ways to do so themselves. I find it quite triggering to come to Witty, somewhere I come to get away from my life, and be reminded of ways to lose weight when I've been trying so hard to free myself from this disease. I know some of you are going to say "well, don't use them then." But it doesn't exactly work like that. Did I choose to have anorexia? No. Am I going to willingly choose to use those tips? No. The thing is, I don't choose. My mind does and that is something I can't control. It's a mental disease and being reminded of ways to lose weight makes it quite difficult. I know I'm going to get "hate," so if you disagree then you disagree. But until you've gone through what I have, you'll never understand.
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We met in kindergarten. We were best friends.
She always told me she loved my eyes. I didn't quite know why.
I was in love with her, so of course my face lit up immensely whenever she said it.
She was beautiful, kind, and extremely funny.
We'd be talking about nothing, and she'd turn to me and whisper,
"I like your eyes."
One day, I was playing basketball,
waiting for her to drive over to my house to have a game with me.
Suddenly, I got a phone call.
It was her mom. She was in a panic.
I couldn't quite understand what she was saying. It sounded like,
"Aaron, come quick! Kelsey, accident, Main Street! Blood. Come now!"
I had no clue what happened,
so I ran to Main Street with my basketball shorts and a tee shirt on.
I saw Kelsey's mom helplessly crying, waiting for the ambulance to arrive.
I saw a totaled car, blood everywhere.
Then I saw her, Kelsey.
My heart stopped as I frantically ran over to her.
"Kelsey? Kelsey!" She was unconscious. I started crying.
I know it isn't very manly, but I couldn't help it.
Before I could say anymore, the medics took her away,
the main source of blood coming from her head.
I went to the hospital that night,
I went every night.
in fact, the only time I left was to go out to eat, but that's it.
The doctors tried getting me to leave, but I refused.
It was all my fault.
If it wasn't for me, wanting to play basketball with her,
she wouldn't be going through this.
It was already four days, and she hasn't woken up.
On the fifth day, I saw her eyes gently open.
"Kelsey?" I called.
She wasn't quite awake yet.
Suddenly, doctors came rushing in, telling me I had to wait outside.
I did, for a few hours.
One of the doctors finally came out saying,
"I understand that you're Kelsey's friend, Aaron?"
"Yes," I whispered.
He bit his lip.
"She woke up, she's fine,
but I'm afraid she has long term memory loss."
"Are you serious?" I almost shouted.
"I'm afraid so."
I didn't meet his gaze. I couldn't.
I wasn't going to say anything, so he spoke again.
"You can go see her if you want,
but she doesn't remember anything, not even her mom."
I walked in, trembling in horror.
I saw her. She looked helpless as she slept.
I waited a few hours, until I saw her eyes opening gently again.
I expected doctors to run in, rushing me out.
Instead, she looked me straight in the eyes, and whispered,
"I don't know you, but I like your eyes."
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I want a person who
comes into my life by accident,
& stays on purpose.
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When guys get jealous
it's kinda cute (':
When girls get jealous
World war III is about to start.
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To prove your dedication to the ninja society, please
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So, my names Paige. My birthday is April 15. My favorite colors are pink, and mint green. I love summer. I have been insecure about what i look like. I have never dated anyone. I have struggled to find those 'perfect' words to describe my life, but that struggle is over. This is my life, and Im living it. Thats all that matters.
My favorite sport is track (but i also do gymnastics.) I love shopping. I am in all advanced classes, so I am a nerd! I probably want to be an actress or something involved with fashion when I am older. My family is all split up. I havent seen some of my uncles and aunts in at least 6 years. Thats a little less then half my life. Some of these people live maybe 25 minutes away. I live in Michigan. So now since you know about me, lets hear about you. :) chat me up!
xoxo
Paige