So i didn't really want to make this post.. but because i guess
it can't cause any harm?
here it goes..
I hate my life. I have a best friend but i'm scared i'm not
her best friend. I don't know why i think like that probably
because in the past i've been screwed over in the past by my
former friends. Airanna and Sam made it feel like a competition..
even though i brought them together. F*ck. I have been pretty much
starving myself this past week because i want to be skinny. I'm
not pretty. I'm insecure. I'm fat. I'm not athletic. I
can't sing even though i want to. I have horrible hair. I
don't have good clothing. My dad yells at me constantly this
past week. F*ck my life. I don't want to cut or burn myself,
but i want the pain to go away so instead i wear hairties everyday
and rubberbands and snap them constantly... i wish my friends would
notice.. i don't want attention i just want someone to care.
This past month all i do after school is go up to my room and listn
music and yell at the top of my lungs nd cry. No one notices
though, why would they? I'm nobody and worthless. My crush
doesn't like me.. why would he? I wouldn't. I try and
change for him but still not even a little conversation from him. I
guess theres nothing else to write.. thanks for reading i guess.
I'm awkward i really don't knwo what to say anymore.. :L