So,
there's this guy,
and he's
also my best guy friend. Like, we're super
close. We were best friends in pre-k, but after that
we went to different schools. We met again in middle school,
and instantly clicked. I'm going to be a sophmore and
I've been fully in love with him since 7th
grade. I haven't told him, and in 8th grade I told all of
my friends. Through those years, I realized that he likes this
other girl. He's had two girlfriends, one that broke his
heart 3 times, and he still wants her back. That's when I
told all of my friends that I don't like him anymore; about
6 months ago. Today, my best friend texted me and told me
she likes him, and she thinks he's going
to ask her out. But I know that he won't; he still
loves his ex. I know I would; she's beautiful and
sweet, and I want to hate her but I can't because she makes
him so happy. And the thing is that this guy is one of those
people that can make you feel like you're the most
important person in the world, and my friend is convinced that
he likes her, but that's just the way he is. I
can't stand it; my best friend is changing right
before my eyes. She's letting it get to her head and she
thinks that 2 other guys like her (that both have girlfriends).
So now I'm using my last 10 minutes of today to
vent to witty; the only place I know that I
won't get judged and that other people can relate. I'm
sitting on my bed, sobbing more than ever,
trying not to give into my OCD that hasn't
bothered me for months, waiting for all of my mom's guests.
In about 10 minutes, I'm going to have to socialize because
it's Fourth of July when all I want to do is listen to
Adele music and eat ice
cream. I'm sorry that this is such a huge vent,
but if you're still reading this and you're in/have
been in a similar situation, I would appreciate some advice or
something, because I'm literally falling
apart.
~Love always, Sarah<3