Heaven is far away.. I have to wait to see my best friend.. I feel like I can't go with anyone, be around my friends because every where I go, it hurts.. It hurts to think that Micah is no longer here for me to talk to or see anymore.. I needed him to be around to make me more comfortable. I knew I could rely on him for anything, his advice, just our heart to heart conversations about girls or whatever needed to be talked about or helped out with.. I don't have that anymore..
I did listen to that song.. It did bring tears to my eyes.. and it's not like micah is somewhere in a different town or state.. He's gone.. His body is done for.. and know why? I didn't help him.. It's the nights that are the worst for me.. where the pain is so damn hard to get through..
I miss him so damn much.. ): I wish he could be here..