Just Need to Vent, Read/Comment/Fav Whatever youd like just please

Just Need to Vent, Read/Comment/Fav Whatever youd like just please dont judge.

I have a pretty good life great family great friends I have God on my side. I use to have a pretty bad life when i was doing bad things but im better now. But you know why im so depressed? So upset i cry myself to sleep at night. Because i dont have a boyfriend. Rediculious right? I know! I havent had a boyfriend for a year! (I had one for like 4 days but i dont count it because well thats a different story) I feel like im not good enough not pretty enough. But the thing is is that im so ungrateful its not like i havent had guys ask me out. I just wont date them. Wanna know why? Because a boy i use to love.. Yep thats why. I like someone knew now. But i never talk to him. Im so pathic. I pray for God to bring me someone and when he does i wont give him a chance. Because my standards are so high. Wanna know why? Because if a guy does something embarrsing i wont like him you know how girls think its cute, I dont i always find some reason to not go out with him or break up with him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I dont understand im so lonely but i wont give anyone a chance and when i do i ruin it because something they did. I just dont understand. I just dont know what wrong with me...