Sometimes I feel like I don't want to meet One Direction. Because
in my head, I've come up with a story that one of them will fall
in love with me. But in reality, I'll just be another obsessed
fan. I feel like I'm not pretty enough to see them, that I'll cry
and embarrass myself because I'll be so overwhelmed. But I just
hope they realize how much they changed my life. How many times
I've cried with joy, argued with haters, been told to 'shut up'
for talking about them too much. How many hours I've spent
sitting on the computer, searching Youtube, Twitter, Tumblr,
Facebook. The friends I've made from talking to directioners all
over the world. I hope they realize how much happiness they have
brought me. They have helped me through more than I can say. And
I love them with all my heart.
I hope they see that...
Except with Tom Hiddleston.
Especially because I'm so much younger than him. But I've truly followed his entire career since I first saw him as Loki. I've gone back and seen/listened to everything he's done. But it doesn't even matter how much I admire him because I'll always be some stupid fangirl to him... It sucks.
But Yes, I can understand where you're coming from