everyone always says that they wish they were still kids, but

everyone always says that they wish they were still kids, but im just the opposite. i'm 14, so still a kid. but i want to be older. i know people say im wishing my life away and that youre only a kid once. but ive been a kid. im not a kid anymore. im tired of being the only girl in my grade to get into a physical relationship. i get judged and unfairly ridiculed, but we love each other. i wish i was old enough to do things without having to sneak around from my parents and my friends. i wish i could do things with my boyfriend in his bed, and not in the mall bathroom. it makes it less special. and if i was older, then maybe we wouldn't have to worry so much about getting caught. yes it sounds sl.utty and stupid. and yes i know i should just wait, and enjoy my childhood while i have it. but i wish i was older.