PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DON'T!! I know your life may not seem like it's good in any way but believe me, it will get better!! If not for yourself, please don't do it for your mom! You may have a messed up dad but that's his decision, you have nothing to do with that! You have no idea how many people love you and would be so hurt if you did this, PLEASE JUST DON'T! Please talk to your mom or someone, even me just please don't!