Just a little vent Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about

Just a little vent

Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies entire world. That's right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They won't be able to go near where you lived, even your own town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they'll hear that song, remember that song, you sang with them just once? they'll step past your locker everyday and wonder why you are not there. Why aren't you there?? Do you want to be responsible for your family member, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing a part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. thats not right. One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark. the pain you are in is awful, but why pass it onto hundreds of people around you. When you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly, everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as 'the kid who killed themselves?' People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you have done. Yes, they will be effected. Everyone around you will stop and think, "was there something i could have done?" Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All hose little hints you gave, they'll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them from time to time. Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that calmed your life. How will they cope, without you? This will break them, for the rest of your lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry, now more than they ever did. Could they have saved you? They'll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn't you do to them? they loved you. and now its too late. They'll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they'll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you only if they knew. And one day, one day years from now, they'll remember you. They will all still remember you. the girl that sat in front of your class, she'll remember you. The bus driver who saw you every morning, he'll remember you. That little girl you sat with once on the bus, she'll never forget. The kid you leant money to at the shop. all your siblings friends, the people that you don't see, but that see you everyday they will remember you. And every single on of them will wonder, why? But imagine your family. You are a part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. the photos on the wall are suddenly cold reminds of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your lover? Who calls the school to tell them you've died? Who tells the students? who calls the funeral directors? who arranges a coffin for you? who calls your best friend, to tell them you're dead?? Who finds you? Please there are other ways out. i know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard. But it not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please don't give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher talked about her father, who committed suicide. "i understand that the pain is overwhelming, but i will never forgive him for the pain he caused to others. It was just selfish. if you kill yourself, you spread the suffering among thousands of people. It doesn't only affect those around of you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you." Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you are having now. It may be hard, but you'll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you're ever feeling so low. Give someone the chance to help you