“ This is, I believe, different from the suicidal wish
This is, I
believe, different from the suicidal wish
of those who are in so much pain
that death feels like relief, different from the suicide I would later attempt,
trying to escape that pain.
This is a wish to murder yourself;
the connotation of kill is too mild. This is a belief that you
deserve slow torture, violent death. ”
- MARYA HORNBACHER WASTED: A MEMOIR OF
ANOREXIA AND BULIMIA.