“Where are we?” I asked, looking around
the apartment I was in.
“My
home.”
“Don't you live with
your parents? You're still in school.”
“I live with Jesse. My
parents always travel and are never home and his are
dead.” I felt sorry for Jesse but tried to push
thoughts away because honestly, it hurt thinking of him
and his girlfriend.
I was being pathetic.
“Oh.”
“So, what do you want to
do?”
“We could watch a
movie,” I said wanting to get more and more away from
the subject of Jesses parents and we didn't even speak
that much about them.
“Alright, any
preferences?” Ryan questioned.
“Nah, anything will be
alright.” Ryan put Ted on.
“Have you watched this
movie before?” he asked me.
“Yeah, I watched it in the
movies,” I shrugged.
“Do you want me to change
it?” I looked at him in awe, he was so sweet. Something
like his statement would probably mean nothing to
most girls but he was going to make a girl very lucky one
day.
The movie had almost finished and tears filled my eyes as the
Ted didn't come back to life. Wasn't this supposed to
be a funny movie? Not some soap opera. The movie, with a
happy ending, soon came to an end and I grinned.
“Where you crying?”
Ryan chuckled.
“No!” I
denied.
“You were! Hah!”
Ryan smiled at me, his eyes sparkling.
Ryan then leant in, his eyes focused on my lips and I stared
at him in anticipation. He was going to kiss me. His lips
softly touched mine and my eyes closed. I tangled my hands in
his dirty blonde hair and his tongue gently licked my bottom
lip, asking for entrance. I debated in my mind if I should
pull away or deepen the kiss. My heart was telling me to pull
away because it didn't feel right, it felt like I was
kissing a friend and my head was telling me not to because I
couldn't just say, 'I like your best
friend'. Shouldn't it be the other way around?
Shouldn't my mind be telling me to stop kissing him? None
the less, I pulled away.
“I'm sorry,”
Ryan said.
“Ryan...” my voice
trailed off. Neither of us said anything for several
minutes.
“You like him, don't
you?” Ryan asked, quietly. So quietly that I almost
didn't hear him.
“Yeah...” I said,
weakly. “It doesn't matter though, he has a
stunning girlfriend, he lives on the opposite side of the
world and I'm sure a guy like him would never go for a
girl like me.”
“You'd be
surprised.” Just as Ryan said that, somebody coughed at
the door. It was Jesse. F/ck. What if he heard that I
liked him?
“How much of that... did
you hear?” I asked, my heart pounding and I awaited his
answer. Did he know I was talking about him? His face showed
no emotion what so ever.
“Enough,” he
answered.