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I lay in bed, it's pitch black in my room. I feel it. A chill

I lay in bed, it's pitch black in my room. I feel it. A chill runs down my back, my blood runs cold. His hands are upon me, burning my skin. My voice, it won't work. I try to open my mouth, but it is as if my lips are glued shut. I feel his hands push upon my back, pain shooting through me. I am paralyzed. I want to run, I want to hide, but I remain there. I feel his fingers trace my skin, I feel him push harder against my back. I can't do anything about it.

I gasp, shooting up in my bed. My heart, erratic; my breath, coming out in gasps. The night is quiet
calm. I feel tears swell within my eyes; I can still feel his hands upon meto this dayI remember everything so vividly. As if it was a memory. But, no, it was a creation of my own mind; my mind, attacking me once again.

I wish you were here, I wish you were holding me. I wish you took away the pain, I wish you too away the nightmares. You're the only thing that I have to hold onto, you're the only thing that makes me believe I could ever get betteras if I could ever beat this. You're my voice of reason, you're my voice of hope; you're my light, my guiding angel.

But, alas, you're with her. Holding her in your arms, looking into her eyes, chasing away her nightmares. I suppose I don't blame you, I'm not much of anythingif that at the very least. She's stable, she's sane, she's good for you. Me, I'm toxic, I would posion you, I would ruin you. Like I've ruined myself.  At least you're still putting up with me, I suppose. At least you haven't abandon me, yet. 

So, I sit there, just like every other night. Replying my lastest destruction of my mind
my latest nightmareover and over again within my head. Memorizing every detail, etching it within my brain. Wishingachingfor you to be here with me, holding me in your arms, keeping the demons at bay. But you're not. And you never will be.

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posted October 28, 2012 at 12:06am UTC tagged with story

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