I'm in a complete moment of weakness and i seem so pathetic

I'm in a complete moment of weakness and i seem so pathetic but i don't care i'm like madly in love with my friend and everyday goes by the same where i wish he would magically ask me out and nothing happens and sometimes if i pay close attention i realize how needy and annoying i am and i amediately stop everything and go into this mode of irritation and annoyance i hate this i hate that i can't just go on like he does i hate that i have this strong passion for him and everytime i'm with him i just want to kiss him,hug him , or just have him hold me but i can't have that because i'm like a little sister to him and nothing more i can see how he looks at me and how for others he would give the world to but for me he loves to annoy me make me mad and just bother but never does he do something to make me happy or cheer me up when im sad i hate this !