This is the only place I can honestly let everything out . It's
where all my private quotes are that nobody I really know can see
.. But I think it's time I need to let everything out . Well
here's my story .. My names Sarah , Let's start off with
I've beengoing through hell & pain I can't get rid of .
I can't live one day without being depressed , I can't be
happy & nobody can make me happy as long as they try . School ;
I go through school every single day with nervous in my stomach
& crying myself to sleep every single night because I don't
fit in there .. I don't have a lot of friends . I have a
boyfriend , He makes me happy a little but not really we always
fight about stupid things & he blames it all on me , I
can't trust him & I don't know why .. We've been
together almost 9 months now & he means everything to me but
I'm still hurting everyday because I worry to much , He just
doesn't understand one bit . I try to explain but he
doesn't listen .. Nobody ever listens to me , I don't know
why I talk or even breathe .. I always end up putting my all out to
people & always getting hurt in the end , Maybe I should stop
trying . I don't even know . I always go to my bestfriend &
complain how I hate my life , She trys to help but nothing ever
works . My mom ; I'm scared to talk to her , She just says
it's all gonna be okay when it's really not .. I wish my
life would just change & I could be better , I wanna be happy
so bad but I just can't , I try .. I think .. It doesn't
work . I give up so quick because I'm tired of being hurt &
put down . I smoke weed to take away all my pain but sometimes it
doesn't really work . I want people to like me & not hate
me just because of my past , I wanna be loved & cared about . I
want everything to be better so bad . I wish I could just wake up
tm & my whole life would be started over & I'd have a
fresh start but that wouldn't happen . I always lay in bed at
night , listen to music & look at the seeling & ask myself
why the world is so sad & depressing & why god chose me to
do this too , I never did anything in my life to hurt anybody ..
Nobody deserves this , being depressed , bullied , feeling like
nothing every second of the day .. & walking in to school
watching everybody pass you in halls & not bother to care about
you or even look at you or ask if your okay or how you've been
. It hurts so much , I hate this pain .. I want it to all go away
.. Yes , Some people have it worse but I hate this depressing life
I have . But well yeah , There's my story ..
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