Baby.. I'm so sorry.. So So Sorry.. I Missed your 19th Birthday

Baby..
I'm so sorry..
So So Sorry..
I Missed your 19th Birthday
I love you Baby
I love you so much
...I can't beleive I missed it
I love you.. everythings going better.. I suppose
Life's crazy.. I have better plans than death now.
I might actually try now.. certian people have given me hope. 
I'm working on changing the world.. still...
I hope I'm getting somewhere, it's killing me, carrying so many people, but I'm doing it. 
I.. I think the cancer killed him.. it's been way over 150 days.. I miss him.. I miss my hope..
Brent did hurt me.. Connor.. I don't even know..
I wish you were here to help me Baby.
But we can't change theese silly things can we? 
You'd be in college, impressing all the boys with your beauty <3 
And I'd kill anyone of them that hurt my sister <3 
Well baby, it's time for me to go, 
I Love You My Angel, Forever & Ever