Please, it would mean the
world to me if you read this.
Today I decided I was going to finally tell my friend about my eating disorder and depression becuase she always comes to me for help with hers. I told her about how I'm bullied and every day people tell me that I'm ugly, no one will ever love me, and that no one likes me and I should just leave our school. She responded with "omg you're not bullied and when your friends tell you that it doesn't count." I tried to tell her that even though there joking it doesn't feel like it. She then continued to yell at me because I'm "not actually bullied" and if they're hurting me to "just walk away." I tried to explain to her that it's not as easy as she thinks it is. She told me "omg yes it is! Holy sh*t!" Then she got angry at me when I told her that she's making me feel worse. I told her I try to help her all the time, so she said "you never actually help me, but whatever sweetens your tea." I told her that I'm sorry that I can't help her that much because I've been depressed since 5th grade and I'm still trying to get over it. She responded back to me an hour later saying "btw you're not depressed, just because you GOOGLED the symptoms doesn't mean you're depressed. You're just sad. And you haven't been sad since 5th grade." Then I finally told her something I thought I would never tell anyone. I told her I almost killed myself once but I backed out. She told me, "No you didn't." I'm glad she knew that. I wasn't really sure that I poured a whole bottle of pills into my hands and was tempted to swallow them. I wasn't really sure. For the rest of the night she continued to tell me that I was only sad and I'm not actually depressed. She called me pathetic almost every other sentence. That'll sure be the last time I ever help her or tust anyone again.
~Do you think she was being rude too, or was I overreacting? Apparently I'm too emotional according to my friends, so I have to ask to make sure.
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Enough of her, this is about you. Give yourself a pat on the back and commend your strength and willpower for still standing through the disorders, bullying, untrustworthy people, and whatsoever awful things you have to bear each day. All these are obstacles you will overcome - though not easy, you will someday. Trust yourself, pure soul. Because you are stronger than you believe. There may be many obstacles ahead, but you will overcome them too. You are growing and changing each day, whether for better or worse, you will triumph if you trust yourself.
Do not feel compelled to reply if you do not want to, just let me know you've read this.
Think on it, keep it with you.