Why??? I didnt try to. I tried to forget, and not look at him.
Now, everyday i try not to go over and start talking to him.
Those moments when he actually comes over to me, i feel so happy.
I start smiling and singing inside. Then i imagining what it
would be like if he liked me back, and force myself to stop. I
try to learn what he likes and what he doesnt, just so i can
start a conversation with him. Is that wrong? I guess this is
what it feels like. I dont want to. He'll never like me back, yet
i still feel like this? I cant wait until i have class with him
but i dread the moment he comes over and starts talking to me,
yet i might die if he doesnt. I search for his head in the
hallway and easily find it, but pray he doesnt look at me. At the
same time i want him to see me, trying so hard to get his
attention. Is this how everyone else feels? I dont understand.
Walking down the hallway near him, i glow. It makes me wonder if
it's obvious to anyone. I'm an expert at keeping feelings hidden,
but-this hasnt happened to me before. How do i hide this
feeling that occupies my thoughts at every minute?
Why
do people dream of love, when it hurts so much?