Finally can post something. Man. I miss my girl so much. Its

ik how hard it is to have someone you love in the military, my dads in the military and it sucks, it gets easier in some ways, you always gonna worry, your always gonna be afraid but each time they leave gets a little easierm you stop thinking about them leaving but more about what your gonna do when they come back. you just can never let yourself think what if the dont come back? cuz thats when its the hardest. count down days, not months, and know that being apart is gonna make being together that much more special. and if you ever need to talk im here :)

Awe. Thanks.! But shes really is wanting to do it and i mean i dont want to stop her from what she wants to do ; but thats all i can think about . What if she doesnt come back ? What if she forgets everything ; all of our memories . Just anything and everything could go wrong .

i promise you, while shes over there, she needs someone to fight for, someone to remind her that no matter what happens over there, some one here loves here, cant wait for her to come home. dont think about the what ifs, those are the worst. they get scary. just think about when she gets back, how much more meaningful being together will be. one thing military familes have is a bond. your all worried, you all cry at night, you all cant wait, and that might seem like its the worst thing about military familes but its the best. knowing the person across the hall feels the same way. my situations kinda unique cuz im in the middle of a custody fight with my parents but right now im living with my dad and his familes pretty nice but point is, even though i dont know them all that much they know what it feels like to be worrying about him so thats kinda how we bonded i promise nothing will go wrong. i pinki promise that, it gets hard, no doubt but just rember she WILL come back.

Yeah thats what she says. I keep telling her why fight someone elses battle when shed be putting her life at risk. She just says she'll be fighting for me. Id rather her be fighting for me here, with me. But she wants to go wherever and do it. Its just a thought that shes really thinking about. And you never know though.! Anything could happen.

ik it seems like they dont care, that they dont love you if they have no problem leaveing you, but its what they want to do, shes gonna be thinking about you. wondering, wishing she was with you, its hard ik, but this might sound harsh but you just gotta get over it i dont mean that in a mean way but but do thats really what i do. you forget about it, try to move on like there not a part of your life and when you can talk to them its the best feeling in the world ik it sounds insensitive, it probly is, i have issues with certain things like that but thats justhow i deal