You know that feeling where your body starts to shut down, but
not beccause you are sick: because you are stressed and upset and
you reach the point where you just don't even know what to
do.
For me, today was that day. I even had to skip class because my
body couldn't handle it. I was done. I had so much on my mind
and I was up so late last night thinking and crying that I just
physically NEEDED to lie in bed.
Some of you will probably judge and say I'm being dramatic
but I'm not, I just finally reached a breaking point. I think
that overthinking led me. I finally analyzed EVERYTHING that
happened this year, even just these past few months, hell these
past few weeks. I came to a conclusion though, I have to stop
blaming everybody else and just accept thee fact that it is me. I
am the cause and I am the reason for all of my problems, failed
relationships, hell I'm the reason I am the way I am. Not
saying I like but just saying that's what it is.
I feel like people say that you need to share the way you feel
with others but I can't A) who I would share with and B) if I
could find someone to share with there is NO way that they will
understand everything going through my head and they will most
definitely think that I am crazy.
I feel broken, not my heart; everything: my whole body, just me.
And it wasn't a clean break it was shattering and I lost so
many pieces along the way. There is no coming back from this...I
am what I am.