Loved You
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Chapter 8.
"Can we talk?" I heard a familiar voice that
pierced through my heart. Niall didn't get a chance to
respond to what I had just told him. We both looked up at Louis.
"Yeah mate, I'll get going." Niall said hugging me
then scurrying out the door. Louis walked over and awkwardly
stood there at the foot of my bed. We stayed silent until I got
confident to just say something. "Why did you make such a
big deal out of that kiss?" I asked him, looking directly at
him. He tried not to make eye contact, I could tell he was upset
with himself and I. "I don't really know.." He
spoke softly. "Bullsh/t Louis. You know damnn well why you
got mad and stormed out. Don't lie to me.." I said
looking away. Louis didn't reply. But I could feel him
looking at me so I quickly looked back at him. He looked away.
"Lou, look at me. Can't you see? Everything happened
because of you. I was inlove
with you and you completely blew me off, so I started dating
Justin and you got more and more distant. I thaught dating Justin
would get my mind off of you, maybe I could trick myself into
thinking I didn't still love you and wish that you
would've made me yours. But nothing worked. Even when Justin
and I were intimate. You. You were always in my mind. Always.
Justin could see it, he wasn't really happy, so I left, told
him you were my first choice and that you always would be.. I
called Niall, crying my eyes out driving and this is what
happens. I wreck and while I'm sitting here all I can do is
think about how different it would be if I never met you and if I
never bumped into you that day, if I never fell in love.. Maybe I
would of been happier, but I couldn't get that lucky because
I did fall. And I fell hard, but you couldn't see it.. You
couldn't see how much you meant to me and how much I loved
you... Louis, I miss you. I need you. But, I can't.." I
said crying. Louis had tears and his eyes. I finally let out all
my feelings. I did what I thought I could never do, but I did and
it hurts more now than it did before. What was Louis going to
say? I thought to myself as Louis' expression shown for a
confusion of words and heartbreak. I sighed and wiped my tears.
"Just tell me what you want me to do Lou!! I'm tired of
this, I'm either your or I'm going back to Justin. Your
choice." I said finally getting a little frustrated.
"I'm scared to make you mine, because once I put a title
on things I tend to treat them differently. I love you Tay, I do
but.. I'm scared. What would I have done if I lost you? I
wouldn't be the same. You complete me, my other half. I'm
only me when I'm with you and the boys and when you're
not there a part of me is missing. I just.." He said sitting
down and looking at me. I got closer to him and wiped away his
tears. I looked in his eyes. "Louis, I once heard something
from A.A Milne.. It goes:
"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together...
there is something you must always remember. You are braver than
you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
But the most important thing is, even if we're apart...
I'll always be with you.” "Louis, just call me
yours, everything will be okay. I promise." I whispered. He
looked at me and pulled his hands from mine...........
A/N:
**. Oh, wow... Talk about sad... Taylin lays down all he
feelins.. Will they get together or will Louis leave her, hopeing
he made the right choice? Keep reading to find
out!(: