Today I was punched in the face and called a b****. I hate some

Today I was punched in the face and called a b****. I hate some of this world people so cruel and life so confusing.
I just don't get why I'm here on this earth I'm invisible. Was this punishment from God why did he put me this way.
I don't know what to do. I wan't to be in heaven with God. I'm so invisable if i were to go would anyone notice?