4th grade he was new to scool,and we soon began to talk. In less
thean a week we were very very good friends. We did everything
together. It didnt matter our gender or how everyone teased us
and said we were going out. We became bestfriends and were
completely inseperatble. We woudl tell each other everything that
we didnt trust others with. And soon I secrely started liking
him, little did I know he liked me too. 5th grade came and he
made new friends so did I but we always made time for eachtoher
to hangout sometime or to talk about problems we had which werent
important at all since we were still little. But then everything
changed we started drifting apart. Everyday we'd talk
less,trust each other less. Soon enough we wouldnt even look at
each other. Just liek that for no reason it all ended. At the
beginning I didnt really care, I got other friends but I began to
miss him, his laugh,all our conversations,his smile,his hugs
everything. But never did I get the courage to talk to him again
and ask him why we drifted apart. 6th grade came I still missed
him and that 4th grade cursh hadnt gone just yet. He got a gf and
I'd get jealous but preferred to stay quiet.Every so often
he'd talk to me and when he did I'd get so happpy but it
was rare when he did. I didnt want to talk to him thinking maybe
he didnt like me, maybe I annoyed him. All year long it was like
that. He broke up with his gf pretty soon and i was glad. Almost
4 years since 4th grade and could you believe i still have that
silly crush on him? We're both 7th graders now. We talk a bit
more now but it never went back to what it used to be back in
4th. Rarely, but when we do talk we cant even look at each other
ig et nervous and shy and he does too we both look down and dont
really keep the converations going. Whenever we have to work in
partners i turn and stare at him and he stares back but not once
have we gotten the courage to actually ask if we'd like to
work together we work with other people. It drives me crazy when
people ask what happeend to us whenever they see us next to each
toher w/o saying a word. "Werent you guys like bestfriend in
4th? What happened?" "Do you guys hate each other
now?" "Why dont you guys hang out or talk
anymore?" the same questions asked over and over. I usually
glance his way wishing he's answer any of the questions,
hoping he knew why we dorve apart but all he does is look down
and so do I. Soon we will move on to 8th and graduate and then we
won't see eachother anymore ever! I wonder if he likes me
back like he did back in 4th is that why he acts that way? when
will I get over this stupid childhood crush? But most of all when
will we ever get the courage to speak to eachtoher? Will we ever
become bestfriend again? Can we please? There's nothing that
I miss more than my 4th grade bestfriend. <3