i dont understand how you expect me to just get over my firsts

i dont understand how you expect me to just get over my firsts childs death?!
He was my first child! I carried him for nine months!!
I was suppose to come home with TWO little babies that day, instead i came home with ONE!!
Your not a parent, you dont know what its like to lose a child! He was my child. My son. My angel. My everything.
He meant the world to me. Id do anything just to hear him cry, see him open his eyes, hold his little body in my arms one more time.
I was starting to cope with this, until you had to throw it up in my face that i did something wrong and thats why my son isnt here with me anymore..
I tried my best, your not making this any easier for me..

I miss him too. Just as much as you do. But your not his parent. You dont understand how it feels..
I really would do anything. Id give my life for him to be here and be healthy and alive, but thats not how it works...
I messed up. I know. And thats why I dont have my son here..

No need to tell me anymore..
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