The worst type of cry is ~
That one cry where you are having a really bad day but you stay
strong during the whole day. The thing is as soon as you get home,
you go in your room and listen to sad music. Its the middle of the
night and you curl up into a ball, you try and try to hold the
tears back. You feel a lump in your throat and your mouth goes dry.
You can feel your lips shake, it's taking every ounce of self
control to not cry because you know your family will hear you.
It's the one where you want to scream, your eyesight goes
blurry from tears trying to escape. You sit there and hold onto a
pillow or your stomach so you dont burst. The one where you hold
you're breath and everything goes dizzy. You're still in a
ball trying to suck it in and make no noise but then its hurts your
lungs so the tears start to come. It's puring from your eyes
and now you dont even care, you dont have a care in the world
except for that one reason you're crying. At that one moment
you want everything to go away, it might be your first experience
with depression or your first suicide attempt. Just remember I am
here if you need to talk, the reason you are crying is not worth
your tears.