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Lemme Kiss You End After a few hours, we went back inside. I

Lemme Kiss You

End

After a few hours, we went back inside. I was tired and, frankly, very sad. Why? Beats me, I just was. I ignored what Niall told me earlier and went into the bathroom. Blood. Blood. Blood... dark... very dark...

NIALL'S POV

She's dead. She can't be dead. She's here for me. She can't be dead. She died in my arms. I watched her take her last breath and I closed her eyes for her. Why didn't I check on her? If I had maybe she'd still be here. There's no note, nothing. She was so happy just moments ago. Now she's gone, and I lost another girl. I lost another girl I almost loved... maybe I did love her.

MOTNTH'S LATER

Dear Ashley,
I didn't know you long, but I think I really did love you. You left me on July 1st and I haven't been able to get over it. You would've turned 18 two months ago. We would have been dating for four months today, if you hadn't left. I have a new girlfriend now, though. Her name is Ashton and she looks like you. She looks a lot like you. Although, when she cries, her eyes aren't as pretty as yours were. You were so pretty when you cried. I wasn't ready to have to say goodbye. It's tearing me apart... Ashton understands my pain though, and she doesn't mind if I talk about you in front of her. Sometimes I even talk to you in front of her. I wonder if you hear me.. Probably not. Well, I'm sorry if you would've wanted me to wait for you. I wanted to wait too but the guys and Jazz wouldn't let me. I'm sure you know I've tried to take my own life a few times. I tried bleach, pills, rope, a jump, but nothing worked. I have cuts all up my wrists like you did. Cuts and scars. I know why you did it now. I like the rush of blood too. It evens everything out. How come I won't just die, Ashley? How come Death won't take me away like he took you? I don't want to be here anymore. I don't sing anymore. I left One Direction on your birthday. The day you were born dead. Maybe that's why you took your life. You thought you were supposed to be dead. Well you weren't. You were supposed to be here, in my arms. Cuddling with me on the couch while we watch boring re-runs of Friends and Full House at midnight. You were supposed to raise my kids with me. I was supposed to look at my daughter and see you. I was supposed to slip a pretty ring on your little finger and ask for your hand in marriage. I saw it all the day we met. My future flashed in front of me the very second you walked through the door. The flash-foward never told me you were going to die a few years too early. I miss you baby. I miss you more than I've missed anything before. Maybe tonights attempt to be with you will work. Maybe I'll be able to hold you again. Maybe.

Forever and Always,
Niall James Horan

P.S. If my attempt works, please be there for me. Hold my hand as I go. Hold my hand as I join you.

Author's Note

I literally cried writing this. I'm bawling right now.