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Getting Better 5-11-13 Well our talk Wednesday went good, everything

Getting Better

           
5-11-13

Well our talk Wednesday went good, everything was fine, Wednesday during Italian class I actually got to know a lot more about him and his family.
Then Thursday came, and we were sitting in Italian class, talking about high school, and how he is gonna be on the football team next year, so I was like "Trevor can you promise me something?" and he said "depends on what it is" and I said "Promise me that if one of us gets popular no matter how popular you get, or how popular I get, we won't bail on each other."
And he couldn't promise me that.

We stayed after Thursday for a dance committee meeting, because we are gonna help decorate and stuff for the eighth grade dance. I still didn't understand why he couldn't promise me that, and he kept saying "what if we fight again?" I told him that I didn't think we were going to fight, I mean there's nothing left to fight about.. and I told him the promise would be off if we stopped being friends anyways, he still couldn't promise me. After the meeting was over he hugged me really tight and I left.

When we got home we were texting and we talked about it and he told me he doesn't know how he's going to feel walking into our big high school, he doesn't know if he'll want to still be with me, or if he'll have any feelings left.. and he said that he was prepared for us to fight and never talk again, that's why he wouldn't make the promise. He was ready for us to fight.. That hurt.
It makes me feel like he has no faith in me, faith in the thing we are doing now, the week by week thing, and it makes me feel like in a way he doesn't trust me, and it really hurts.
Friday I saw him for only a little bit in the morning because I had to take a math MCAS (Massachusetts Comprehensive Assessment System) test. We hugged goodbye and I told him I was sorry he felt the way he did, and I said I was sorry about everything.
After school he texted me, but I couldn't answer right away because I was 2 towns away at my family's farm, but he told me that he does trust me and does appreciate the changes I've beeen making, but he thinks he trusts me more than I trust him, because If I trusted him I wouldn't have even asked him to promise he wouldn't bail on me....I just wanted to be reassured that things were going to be okay, and he couldn't even tell me that.. He also said that he thinks I'm hiding my true feelings from him by trying to mask it with all the good changes that have been going on, he thinks on the inside I'm fed up with him, and have a lot of built up anger towards him. It's true that I'm hiding what I'm feeling, but it's not anger. It's sadness. I have never been so upset in a very long time over this whole thing.


But I thought we were getting better

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clearlytruthful 1 decade ago
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OH MY GOSH he just did a move gosh I want to punch him, sorry I shouldn't be violent towards your boyfriend
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posted May 11, 2013 at 10:56am UTC tagged with love, friendship, famous, story, true, help, tired

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