The Letter. THE CHANGE.
The Lie.
Chapter 81:
July 17
*Katia's POV*
After half an hour
in the shower I finally turned off the water and stepped out into
the steamy room. Slowly I wiped off my body and slipped on
Mia's clothes, pajama shorts and a old school sweatshirt cut so
it fell off my shoulder, before drying off my hair. Using a corner
of the towel, I cleared off a section of the mirror and stared at
my reflection. My eyes were red and swollen from crying and small
smudges of mascara still hung beneath my eyes making me look like a
panda. Using an extra amount of energy I wiped away the excess make
up and, with a final glance at my zombie like reflection, opened
the door.
As I
walked into Mia's room to find her headphones to borrow I heard
Liam open the door. I didn't think much of it at first until I
heard his voice asking for me. I crept to
the end of the hallway
to listen in without being seen.
"I
don't think that's a good idea right now," Liam told
him. By the tone of his voice I knew he wouldn't let him in,
but felt bad for his friend.
"Please just
let me explain to her what happened, I just need her to know
my side of things," I heard Louis's voice try to reason
with Liam. He sounded desperate, like he did when I was getting
into the cab.
"I'm sorry
Lou, maybe tomorrow. I don't think tonight is the right
time." though my back was facing them I could easily visual
Liam shaking his head as he talked.
"But what if
she breaks up with me? Liam, she needs to know what happened,"
his voiced died down before he whispered something quietly so I
couldn't hear.
I heard
Liam sigh and after a moment of silence he spoke again. "I
won't let her make any decisions until you two talk, okay? But
you have to go. Go home, get some sleep mate. You need
it."
I could
tell they weren't going to be talking for much longer and tip
toed back to Mia's room and pretended to have just found the
head phones when Liam's figure appeared in the doorway. I
smiled weakly at him as I stuck them in my ears and started to play
my music; I didn't want to talk to anyone, not right then. I
wanted to take a while and think things through for myself before I
spoke to anyone about it.
As I
laid on Mia's bed I stared at the ceiling light in hopes of
burning the image of Louis and Ashlyn from my head. Ashlyn was in
the UK, she was here. Why was she here? How was she? Maybe they
planned on meeting there and Louis really is cheating on me. Maybe
thats why he was on his phone the entire time afterwards, and had
been so protective of it lately. I used to be able to take it and
would take random pictures and then give it back later, but he
didn't even let me use it to call Mia the other day. It would
explain his weird behavior, and Mia did say this was how Niall was
acting before we found out about Tessa and Milo...
A voice
from the back of my mind reminded me that her dad took business
trips here from time to time, and it was believable she had
persuaded him to take her with. And it wasn't like Lou had kept
it a major secret we were planning on going to the concert, so she
could have easily of known with a little
research...
As badly
as I wanted to believe the voice I couldn't. Maybe I had jumped
into our relationship too fast, maybe everything happened too fast.
When I said yes to him just a little over a month ago, part of me
expected something like this to happen but I didn't want to
believe it. I should of said no, I should of waited until I knew I
was able to date him without Ashlyn being a constant thought and
threat in the back of my mind. I should of waited until I knew
everything that happened with Zach was behind me, or
mostly.
We
jumped into our relationship, and maybe I was okay with that at the
time because I was still desperately wishing Lou was mine even
though I said otherwise. It was that moment of weakness where my
wants overtook my voice of reason, but then Louis was sweet and a
perfect gentleman and I started to think that it was actually a
good decision.
Idiot.
Now look where I was at, curled into a pathetic ball on Mia's
bed at Liam's place while blaring music as I bawled my eyes
out. And once again, the cause of my misery was
Ashlyn.
AUTHORS NOTE: Sorry! Had to split into two
parts!