My sister saw the cuts on my wrist and didn't say anything but

she may be a sister by blood, but she isn't one at heart.

Yeah. People says cares. I don't see it. As for the plane tickets, I can't leave y friends here. They're why I haven't run yet. So ya know. I would if it weren't for them <3

I think it's sweet how you'd stay in that mess for your friends. Could you escape to their house often?

I wish. If I could I would. But I can't because the closet friend I have lives a 30 minutes drive away. And my parents never wanna drive me, and they can't pick me up usually .-.

Wow...

Yeah. I've thought it through .-.

that's terrible elyssa.

Yeah... Se what I deal with? I break and I get shoved down further and threatened for being hurt... Ugh... I just wanna run away .-.

you can run away down here! my dad could get you plane tickets!

im sorry. if I could I would fly over there and come and rescue you. <3

It's ok. Thanks love... Idk anymore.... I just don't wanna deal with any of them anymore. If I lived with my cousins, it'd e easier. But I don't... I live with a b.tch that hates me... Ugh.... I feel mean now :'(

you aren't mean. it is ok just to let it out sometimes. No one, I don't care who the he// they are, should be using your scars against you. Your sister obviously doesn't understand. Im sorry that she doesn't help you like a sister should. But at the same time every family has their issues. You are only there for 4 more years. It seems like a lot now but in the grand scheme of things it is really only an instant. It will all be ok.

I can't wait to leave. You have no idea how happy I will e to walk out that door foe the last time and never have to look back. But you know... My sister doesn't get it. She doesn't care. It's jist another thing to use against me in her eyes

sorry it took so long to reply. Im sorry hun. You deserve better. But friends are the family that we chose. so hold onto your friends. Plus I will always be here for you.

No worries. And I'm trying... It's just my friends are slipping away. Either they need me for something or don't feel like handling this side of me. They only wanna see the bubbly, fake side of me like everyone else. I'm always here for you too. If you ever get tired of me being depressing, I don't blame you. I'd be tired of me too...

No hun don't think that way. I will always ALWAYS be here for you. You can come to me whenever you need someone to talk to. I would rather you come talk to me for hours than go and cut yourself.

Thanks love. I'll come to you. I cut today though. I'm so sorry :'(

Don't apologize. Its going to be ok. I knwow its hard but its not fair to do this to yourself. You really deserve better. I wish you could see how beautiful you are.

If you saw what I see when I look in the mirror, you'd run. You'd be so disgusted you might just bury me alive. Idk. I'm a scr.w up and can't do anything right... So ya know... It hurts less when I do the punishing muself

I care and I'm here I might not be perfect but I care and I love you so if you want to talk I'm here and I wont judge,, :)

Thanks love. It means a lot <3