okay you know what? fine, i'll admit it. i'm scared that my life's

 He was my BestFriend.
I told him everything {&} he was the only
person that i could ever just talk to.
He understood what i was going through
{&}
He knew exactly how i felt.
I loved him and i know he loved me too.
He was the only person i could ever see myself
spending the rest of my life with.
I know im young, and so is he, but when im with him,
all the problems in the world just seem to
disapear. When im near him the only thing i want to
do is hug him, and never let go. Because in 
his arms, is where everthing would just 
fall into place. 
I would call him almost every single day,
just to hear the sound of his voice, & truthfully, the only
thing i wanted to hear, was his voice. But
now all of that has changed.
Im not sure how, nor why. I guess time got
the best of us. We have both became two different people. 
He's not how i remember him, and 
im not how i remember myself..... But he has a girlfriend
now {&} the only thing i want for him is to
be happy, no matter how much it hurts me. When i see them
together, it shatters my heart. 
Becasue that could have been me, but its not, and  dont
think it ever will be.

He was my BestFriend, and no matter what,

I will always love him.

Its not like i ever stopped*<33


&& he has no idea that when he says "hi" to me,[ i melt ] 
when he walks near me, m y  h e a r t is going crazy
when he says my name, i get butterflies in my stomch.
and even though i had my [ c h a n c e ] _______</3       xo
he has no idea that i simply want him to come back to me.

It's sad when...
People you know become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like
they were never a big part of your life. How you
used to be able to talk for hours and now you
can barely even look at them...