I've never had a boyfriend, never been the apple of anyone's

I've never had a boyfriend, never been the apple of anyone's eye.
Every time I think about it, no matter how hard I try; it always ends the same: I cry.
I feel worthless. What have I done to deserve this?
I read so many stories; they filled me with hope.
After what I've experienced in this world, the hope was gone, because of the hurt. Oh, so pained.
Then I met you, everything changed.
I fell for you, my feelings true. Then I found out you knew.
I was elated, my sadness quickly faded.
But my heart you traded. All for her.
So here I am again, this story never ends. Just a repeating cycle, just always a friend.