Love Quote #6865790
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❝ The first time I saw her.. Everything in my head went quiet.




The first time I saw her..
Everything in my head went quiet.
All the ticks, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared.

When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments.

Even in bed, I’m thinking:

Did I lock the doors? Yes.
Did I wash my hands? Yes.
Did I lock the doors? Yes.
Did I wash my hands? Yes.

But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips...
Or the eyelash on her cheek—
the eyelash on her cheek—
the eyelash on her cheek.

I knew I had to talk to her.

I asked her out six times in thirty seconds.

She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going.

On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or talking to her..
But she loved it.

She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times at different times of the day.

She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk.

When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely lock the door eighteen times.

I’d always watch her mouth when she talked—
when she talked—
when she talked—
when she talked;
when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges.

At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off. She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her.

But then...she said I was taking up too much of her time.

That I couldn’t kiss her goodbye so much because I was making her late for work...

When she said she loved me, her mouth was a straight line.

When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking.

And last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place.

She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but...

How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touch her?

Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t.

I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her.

Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin.
I see myself crushed by an endless succession of cars...
And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on.

I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel...
How she turns shower knobs like she opening a safe.

How she blows out candles—
blows out candles—
blows out candles—
blows out candles—
blows out—...

Now, I just think about who else is kissing her.

I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once—he doesn’t care if it’s perfect!

I want her back so bad...

I leave the door unlocked.

I leave the lights on.




                                                       
 



18 Comments

BreeeFayy* 1 decade ago
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this was beautiful
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barakat* 1 decade ago
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I'm obsessed with Button Poetry. Every video/poem they post is /perfect/.
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Lifes_Short_Make_It_Last 1 decade ago
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what video! I wanna watch it
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnKZ4pdSU-s

It's called "OCD" by Neil Hilborn and it's beautiful, I highly recommend watching it.
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KissMyAxe 1 decade ago
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i cried so much at that video omg
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Trishaaa 1 decade ago
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this is beautiful
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psychosis* 1 decade ago
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Oh my gosh I watched that video a couple days ago and I swear, I cried. Such a great poem.
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whatever1234567890 1 decade ago
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I was gonna post this! have u seen the video where he preformed it? One of my all time favorite poems. I adore it
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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Yes! It's linked down at the bottom comment, so everyone can see it! :)
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vivre merveilleusement* 1 decade ago
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this is one of the most beautiful poems I've ever read, and it's now become my favorite. I almost cried, ok. i'm sensitive to this typ of thing, and it was the perfect quote to open up witty and see once I logged in :'-)
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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Don't worry, I cried when I first heard it as well. Completely normal.~
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[deleted] 1 decade ago
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This is incredible, this is so gonna make the top quotes if not then *faves it 2 billion times* THIS IS BEAUTIFUL
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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It is! One of my favorite poems~! :')
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dapz95 1 decade ago
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this is so beautiful ... really ... oh my god, i ... really, realy love it
if this doesn't make top quotes, remember how much i've loved it.
i'd favourite 500 times if i could :') xxx
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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Awh, thank you, but I take no credit for this beautiful poem. But either way, thank you. :) x
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dapz95 1 decade ago
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that don't matter. you shared it with me, and made my day. scrap that, perhaps more ;)
thank you, really, for sharing this :) x
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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You're very welcome. :) x
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celestialerror* 1 decade ago
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Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnKZ4pdSU-s

It's called "OCD" by Neil Hilborn and it's beautiful, I highly recommend watching it.
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posted August 22, 2013 at 1:31pm UTC tagged with love, poetry, ocd, neilhilborn, famous

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