i believe the reason
why i sleep so often is because i am afraid.
i am afraid of the outside world and the people in it. inevitably
so, we all have to face it. but there is a period of time, a
string of hours, where we are usually the most
undisturbed. a span where there is no interaction with
others and no criticism from others, if you sleep alone that
is.
that period of time is sleep, and i find it surprisingly
precious.
when i was young, i avoided it as much as possible. and now it is
one of the things i yearn for the most—because
when i sleep, i can appreciate the silence, the emptiness, and
every space that lies in between.